I need to start this post by saying I am sorry. I am sorry because my failure to look after my ongoing medical issues has caused many things like ThinkerCast to suffer and nearly be abandoned.
I am not a well man, that is, my health has been poor and in decline for a few years. In 2020, I suffered a catastrophic medical event that nearly cost me my life. This event left me with permanent damage, disfigurement and chronic pain. I spent most of 2021 trying quite literally to get back on my feet as I had to build enough strength to stand, let alone walk. My entire life and way of living was something that had to change. I did my best and was doing well until some personal issues dealing with PTSD decided to derail everything in 2022.
2022 was supposed to be the year that my mobility and health got back to normal, but it turned out to be A year that could have cost me my life again. The year got off without a hitch, and that was great. I made many plans for this year, but unfortunately, they were delayed due to a single lawyer’s incompetence. The mounting stress of everything being pushed off again and again finally started to push me to my limit. I began to neglect to take my medication as scheduled, and eventually, I would run out. We eventually got to take our vacation, and then the entire family came down with COVID-19. I was the only one who wasn’t affected. My work-life balance at the end of. 2022 had pushed me to my absolute breaking point. I was trying to balance work or at least get back to work and support my family, and it was nothing more than a complete failure. I ran out of my medication and didn’t care.
In early January of 2023, my wife noticed something was wrong, as I was starting to deteriorate the way I usually do without my medication. I made a telephone call and could not get ahold of my doctor. So I did the next best thing and went on the internet to find a place to book an appointment. I eventually got a refill for my prescription, and since the middle of January, I have been recovering, with my body returning to its normal functioning.
I am happy to report that I am no longer in a constant state of pain; it has returned to being rare and intermittent. My body has returned to its usual functioning self—my ability to think and process my thoughts properly also has returned to a relatively normal state. I am no longer a walking shell of a man.
I want to apologize to my family for what happened. I realize that it is my fault, and I bear sole responsibility for that. I am trying to get things organized. I have tried to find ways to make life simpler and more streamlined.
So where does that put ThinkerCast? I spoke to a childhood friend, and I went through my entire workload and decided that 90% of it just had to go. In truth, I have been working on nearly two dozen websites. With a handful of social media profiles belonging to each website, it was like managing 100 different digital properties. I could spend the entire day working, but at the end of the day, I would step back and look at the mountain of work still left to do and feel defeated. Now, anything that could be transferred to someone else has been done, and anything unproductive has been shut down. Only a few projects remain, and ThinkerCast is one. I have a few things to do over the next few days, and I hope to have ThinkerCast up and running by my birthday.
Once again, I need to apologize to everyone and say that I’m very deeply sorry for what has happened. My mental state has not been as stable as I would have liked. My PTSD exacerbates problems that I should have been able to deal with. Sometimes, it takes me a very long time to complete a small task due to a mental block that appears with no explanation.
Thanks for your understanding,
Joshua Eaton